Sunday, October 8, 2017
Era of Darkness: The British Empire in India--by Shashi Tharoor
Sunday, May 14, 2017
Age of Anger - Pankaj Mishra(2016)
The author states that in the age of digitization today, individuals find themselves herded by capitalism and technology into a common present, where grossly unequal distributions of wealth and power have created humiliating new hierarchies. This proximity, is rendered more claustrophobic by digital communications, the improved capacity for envious and resentful comparison. An existential resentment of other people’s being, caused by an intense mix of envy and sense of humiliation and powerlessness, and as it lingers and deepens, poisons civil society and undermines political liberty, and is presently making for a global turn to authoritarianism and toxic forms of chauvinism.
The book is thought provoking, but does not provide a suggested alternative. If not liberal democracy and free market capitalism then what model should one follow?
Saturday, September 3, 2016
The Philosophy of Friedrich Nietzsche by Henri Louis Mencken
Nietzche is dated. The book is dated. Written by Henri Louis Mencken in the early part of 20th century, the book feels like a product of a bygone era.
The Nietzsche philosophy had regular sexist, racist undertones but the author doesn't question them, as the book is from another era when casual racism and misogyny were rampant.
Nietzsche is a good read for those who still want find a reason to question the existence of religion. If not then the book will appear a bit dated and feel stale.
Nietzsche of course has his place in the development of human thought.
Nietzsche’s questioned as to why all ideals, whether explicitly religious or not, presumes an afterlife that is better than the ‘here and now’.
In Nietzsche’s eyes, such a fabrication negates us from seeing the beauty of life on Earth.
He condemned attempts to deny actual truth in the name of false realities, instead of accepting the real as it is.
Nietzsche accuses all the grand scientific, metaphysical and religious systems, of having systematically ‘despised’ the body and the senses in the interests of reason and rationality.
Hence Nietzsche says: “I entreat you, my brothers, remain true to the earth, and do not believe those who speak to you of extraterrestrial hopes.”
Nietzsche came under the sway of Schopenhauer when young and he imbibed much of the what the eternal pessimist expounded. If Schopenhauer proclaimed on Will to Live , Nietzsche borrowed his ideas and padded it up in his Will to Power.
Schopenhauer explained that the universe and everything in it is driven by a primordial will to live, which results in a desire in all living creatures to avoid death and to procreate. For Schopenhauer, this will is the most fundamental aspect of reality – more fundamental even than being.
Schopenhauer’s negation of the will was a saying "no" to life and to the world, which he judged to be a scene of pain and evil.
Schopenhauer saw this world as the product of a malignant Will.
Schopenhauer renounced life, he said the world is Hell, don’t seek happiness in it.
Nietzsche on the other hand affirmed life and espoused earthly values. He rejected Platonic/Christian ideals of the “other world” being more real than this one, and argued forcefully for living fully here.
Nietzsche's formula for greatness in a human being was ‘Amor fati’.
That is “ to want nothing to be other than as it is, neither in the future, nor in the past, nor in all eternity. Not merely to endure what happens of necessity, still less to hide it from oneself – but to love it…“
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Blood Year- The unravelling of Western Counter Terrorism : David Kilcullen
This book is an absolute must read for anyone wanting to know what the mess in Iraq and Syria is all about. Published in 2016, it gives a birds eye view and an insight into the reasons for the unholy mess that led to the creation of the ISIS.
The author David Kilcullen had the benefit of a ringside view of events as they unfolded as he served as an intelligence officer with the Bush administration in Iraq, Afghanistan, Pakistan, the Horn of Africa and Southeast Asia and further with the Obama administration, in many of the same places as an adviser and consultant to the U.S. Government.
As a Lt Col in Australian Army in September 2004, the Americans had put in a formal request for the author who penned the 'Disaggregation theory' - a theory put forth by Kilcullen to combat the global threat of Al Quaeda- to join the team writing strategic assessments for the Pentagon.
Australia initially offered a general instead, while the Americans politely reiterated their request for the guy who had written the Disaggregation paper.
The strategy of Disaggregation sought to dismantle, or break up, the transnational links that allowed Al Quaeda's Jihad to function as a global entity- a theory which has now been laid to rest post the rise of ISIS.
2014 - called the Blood year by Kilcullen saw numerous events which can now be viewed as having changed the global landscape irretrievably.
In the summer of 2014, in less than 100 days after ISIS launched its blitzkrieg in Iraq, Libya’s government collapsed, civil war engulfed Yemen, a sometime small-town Iraqi preacher named Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi declared himself caliph, the latest Israel–Palestine peace initiative failed in a welter of violence that left more than 2,200 people (mostly Palestinian civilians) dead, and the United States and its allies, including the United Kingdom and Australia, sent troops and planes back to Iraq.
Russia reignited Cold War tensions by formally annexing Crimea, armed and sponsored Ukrainian rebels. Iran continued its push to become a nuclear threshold power, supported Assad in Syria, and yet became a de facto ally of the United States in Iraq.
The 'Global war on terror' says Kilcullen started unravelling the day George Bush took his decidedly unreasonable decision to invade Iraq in 2003. Invasion of Iraq went more or less as planned; but it was the post conflict period that was not well thought out by Bush and Co.
Rumsfeld kept the force that invaded Iraq just over 200,000—sufficient to defeat Iraq’s regular military, but criminally inadequate to contain the chaos after the fall of Saddam, or counter the escalating insurgency once the lid came off his regime. After Saddam fell, Rumsfeld oversaw the disastrous de-Ba’athification edict and the disbanding of the Iraqi Army, two critical early missteps that put 400,000 fighting men—along with middle-class Iraqis out on the street with no future, homicidally intense grievances and all their weapons.
Kilcullen has likened President Bush’s decision to invade Iraq to Hitler’s invasion of Russia. In invading Iraq with the job still unfinished in Afghanistan, President Bush made precisely the same strategic error as Hitler did in invading the Soviet.
In December 2001, with the Battle of Tora Bora still raging on the Afghan–Pakistani border, US began transferring assets from Afghanistan, rebalancing for a future invasion of Iraq. The job was far from finished in Afghanistan: Bin Laden’s location was still unknown, and the effort to stand up a stable government to guard the country against a Taliban return had barely begun.
The Iraqi military was seen as so weak, the invasion was expected to be a pushover, and the lightning march to Baghdad in March–April 2003, along with the spectacular rout of Saddam’s elite Republican Guard, seemed to confirm this. Then things fell apart.
From March 2004 onward there was not one insurgency in Iraq, but at least six. On the Shia side were communitarian militias, Iranian proxies, and the Sadrists of the Mahdi Army. On the Sunni side were jihadists like Zarqawi of Al Quaeda of Iraq (AQI), secular Sunni nationalists, who rejected the transformation of Iraq into what they saw as an Iranian satellite, and former regime elements.
Truly tragic was the sectarian violence that spiked post Saddams disposal.
Shi’a groups operated mainly defensively, protecting their communities against jihadists and Sunni nationalists, but this didn’t stop them kidnapping, torturing and killing Sunni civilians when they could.
Whereas for Sunni groups by provoking the Shi’a, they hoped to bring such heavy retaliatory violence down on the Sunni community that they would be backed into a corner, where groups like AQI would be all that stood between Sunnis and the Shi’a death squads, giving people no choice but to support such groups whatever they thought of its ideology.
So AQI went out of their way to provoke the most horrific violence against their own people. For example, fighters of AQI would kidnap young boys, torture them to death and dump the bodies—eyes gouged out, ears, little limbs and genitals hacked off, cigarette and blowtorch burns all over them or the tops of their heads sliced open and electric drills thrust into their brains—back on the street in front of their houses. This is a straight-up description given by the author of what the AQI did to the twelve-year-old brother of a translator who worked with him in Baghdad.
The goal was to trigger outrage and in retaliation some would get killed and the cycle of violence became self-sustaining.
Their goal was to provoke a sectarian conflict that would force Sunnis to close ranks in an AQI-led proto-state—which, by October 2006, they were already calling themselves the Islamic State of Iraq.
To be fair to Bush, the violence appalled him and he tried to make amends. In November 2006 President Bush pushed Vice President Cheney aside and took direct charge of the war himself, appointing General Petraeus to command in Iraq. He then launched the Surge—a wholehearted attempt to apply Petraeus’s counterinsurgency doctrine, along with more troops and a larger civilian effort on the ground to achieve greater political leverage and force an end to the conflict. This escalation of involvement was intended to protect the population, break AQI’s hold of fear over the Sunni community, stop the cycle of sectarian violence, force the Iraqi government to be more inclusive and less sectarian, and reduce civilian casualties.
By the time Obama took over in 2009 things had changed: AQI had been virtually destroyed, violence was down dramatically. For instance in July 2007 (the first full month all Surge forces were in place) 2,693 civilians died; by January 2009 the figure was down to 372, an 86 per cent reduction.
This created the essential breathing space for Iraq’s self-serving politicians to resolve their differences, but they didn’t use that space to do so. Ultimately it was the presence of international troops, money and advisers that compelled Baghdad to act more inclusively.
President Obama was far less engaged than his predecessor had been—the phone calls to Maliki , the Iraqi PM and videoconferences with the force commander and ambassador ceased abruptly.
Obama, like most new American presidents, was putting domestic issues ahead of foreign policy.
He was the opposite of President Bush, which of course was quite appropriate, since that’s exactly what he’d been elected to be. But President Obama’s aloofness let loose Prime Minister Maliki adrift, freeing him to pursue his personal agenda.
In fact one may even see Maliki to be largely responsible for the mess that is Iraq today.
Instead of working to unify and create and inclusive government, Maliki played his sectarian card to the hilt driving more and more Sunni's to the arms of the ISIS.
Maliki wasted no time after U.S. forces left in 2011: within days Maliki issued an arrest warrant against his Sunni vice president, and targeted other Sunni ministers, provoking protests by Sunnis that soon spiraled out of control.
Maliki was bafflingly short sighted in his approach. He was targeting moderate Sunni politicians: those who had rejected the insurgency, chosen to participate in the political process and were peacefully pursuing their interests through Iraq’s institutions. Likewise, he was harassing precisely those tribal leaders who’d turned against AQI and were merely seeking to protect their communities, rather than (like the Ba’athists) to reverse the outcome of 2003 or (like the jihadists) to drown the world in blood.
Maliki’s actions convinced many Sunnis of something AQI -which later metamorphosed into ISIS- had been unable to persuade them of in 2006: that peaceful politics would never work, that armed struggle was the only route to survival.
One more angle that led to the creation of ISIS was the role of the Syrian dictator Bashar al-Assad.
When an uprising began against his brutal regime in Syria, Assad began to portray the resistance as composed entirely of jihadists, and himself as the lesser of two evils. Assad released jihadist prisoners from regime prisons at the start of the conflict and did little to target ISI, letting it gain control of contested areas and carve out a safe haven in Raqqa province.
For its part, ISI avoided confronting the regime, and a de facto truce emerged between the two, which lasted until late 2013.
In Syria too Obama failed to act when the violence went out of control and where President Bush was reckless, President Obama seemed feckless.
In January 2014, ISIS surged across the border from syria and launched an offensive that drove the government out of Fallujah, and Tikrit. ISIS was acting more like a conventional army than a guerrilla organization: instead of operating in small, clandestine cells, in plain clothes, by night, with civilian vehicles and light weapons, ISIS was running columns comprising dozens of technicals, trucks, artillery pieces, and captured armored vehicles.
It was moving openly, in large groups, by day, in uniform, fielding heavy weapons (mortars, rockets and heavy machine guns). Its tactics combined urban terrorism and clandestine reconnaissance with mobile columns, snipers, roadside bombs, suicide attackers and terrorist cells, showing a level of sophistication well beyond that of AQI in 2006–07. And as it captured territory, it was acquiring tanks, heavy armored vehicles, artillery and vast amounts of funding, and picking up recruits. ISIS was thinking and fighting like a state: it had emerged from the shadows.
Today the Islamic State has become a brand, an after-the-fact justification, a psychological crutch that let so called Jihadis across the world to valorize their personal problems, self-dramatize as a martyr, and dignify their crimes and psychiatric struggles with a veneer of political purpose.
By giving such lone disillusioned losers a program of action and a rallying point, ISIS—as a brand, an idea, or a methodology—was having a global impact wholly separate from its organizational structure or agenda.
For the author, the rise of ISIS signalled a fully disaggregated terrorist movement, with an ideology insidiously attractive to alienated and damaged people likely to act on it, combined with omnipresent social media and communications tools that hadn’t even existed on 9/11, and enable such people to spread terrorist violence unconstrained by time, space, money or organizational infrastructure. Add in a do-it-yourself tactical toolkit of improvised weapons and random targets, and we are looking at an atomized, pervasive threat even harder to counter than the global insurgency it had replaced.
Sunday, May 24, 2015
Super Economies- America, India, China & The Future of the World : Raghav Bahl(2015)
These shrill proclamations about being a Superpower or a SuperEconomy reminds me of a Margaret Thatcher quote:
'Power is like being a lady.... if you have to tell people you are, you aren't.'
The portion of the book which talks of the ‘Future of the World’ given in the cover, is covered in flat last five pages of the book; And of course the 'future' is nice and rosy with China playing ball with the benevolent democratic Superpowers of US and India.
.......While much of the world drifts towards democracy—
Post the collapse of Arab Spring and witnessing the current chaos reigning in Iraq and Afghanistan, one might conjecture that Democracy is not the 'one size that fits for all' miracle solution.
Raghav Bahl harbors no such cynicism or doubts whatsoever. He sees India to be on top of the heap soon enough and as good Indians one shouldn't shake his faith.
Read the book for its good vignettes and anecdotes on Indian History.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
Antidote: Oliver Burkeman (2011)
They are no keys to everlasting happiness, he says. Sure they pep you up a bit and make you feel good ephemerally; but when the chips are really down and you are staring down the barrel, platitudes on Optimism and Positivity fall flat. And therafter, he says, it’s a downward spiral.
Burkeman suggests an alternate path to happiness in his ‘Antidote’; the book claiming to be a bracing detox for the self-help junkie’. It draws heavily from the Stoics, new age guru’s like Eckhart Tolle and Alan Watts.
The path suggested is sometimes thought provoking; but is it something radical and off the clichéd path?
Is happiness really a goal worth pursuing?
There are good reasons to believe that the whole notion of ‘seeking happiness’ is flawed to begin with. For one thing, who says happiness is a valid goal in the first place? Religions have never placed much explicit emphasis on it, at least as far as this world is concerned; philosophers have certainly not been unanimous in endorsing it, either. And any evolutionary psychologist will tell you that evolution has little interest in your being happy, beyond trying to make sure that you’re not so listless or miserable that you lose the will to reproduce.
Interesting.
But the Author doesn’t pursue this thought. Happiness is a worthwhile goal, he decides. And the book is all about an attempt to chalk out a path to happiness.
Stoics
Live virtuously in accordance with reason, said the Stoics.
This will lead to inner tranquility - ‘a state of mind, marked by the absence of negative emotions, such as grief, anger, and anxiety, and the presence of positive emotions, such as joy’.
And how do you achieve tranquility? Not by strenuously chasing after enjoyable experiences, but by cultivating a kind of calm indifference towards one’s circumstances.
One way to do this, was by turning towards negative emotions and experiences; not shunning them, but examining them closely instead.
They held that the universe was God; that there was a grand plan, and that everything was happening for a reason.
But when Burkeman takes the high road and disagrees with the notion of a ‘Grand Design’, as he found the idea difficult to swallow as a ‘modern secular mind’, the entire philosophical edifice of the Stoics come crashing down.
If as Burkeman maintains ‘Stoically’, that individual efforts do not matter, then what is it that matters?
If there is no ‘Grand Design’ and stuff just happens, who decides what should happen?
If there is no Cosmic Agency out there, nobody to decide what is to happen in my life, what should unfold in my piffling existence on Earth, then why should anyone stop me from doing my two bit to improve my miserable existence?
Burkeman says individual effort matters little. But how do you decide that? How do you come to the conclusion that individual efforts do not matter? If there is no Cosmic Agency to decide how things should unfold, then who says my efforts do not matter?
Empirically speaking, it’s difficult to arrive at a definite conclusion. Burkeman may be right or he may be wrong. Individual efforts might or might not matter. But it makes more sense, in the absence of a ‘Cosmic Divinity’ or a ‘Heavenly Script Writer’(if you accept Burkeman’s postulate), to believe that what you do matters.
Maybe what you do is the only thing that matters or at best influences circumstances to your benefit.
Burkeman believes that your individual effort may come to naught and cause you grief if things don’t go your way. So he props up the Stoic theory to brace yourself against the pitfall of things going wrong.
Winning and losing, I believe, are simply the mundane ‘ups’ and ‘downs’ of life and I do not see this as a case to decry individual effort here.
You put in effort. You win; then good, if not buckle up and carry on I guess.
Non-Attachment
This involves attempts to observe the mind; to learn to view passing thoughts and feelings as if one were a spectator and not a participant. The aim is to achieve a kind of Non-Attachment; the mind is seen to be akin to the sky: the sky does not cling to good or bad weather conditions, the sky just is. Similarly the mind just is, with all kinds of thoughts and emotions flitting on it.
But why Non-Attachment at all?
What purpose does it serve?
In the Author’s words- ‘It’s not clear why the rest of us should want to emulate him (Budddhist monks). Attachment,…is the only thing that motivates anyone to accomplish anything worthwhile in the first place. If you weren’t attached to things being a certain way, rather than another way- and to feeling certain emotions, rather than others - why would you ever attempt to thrive professionally, to better your material circumstances, to raise children, or to change the world?’
Burkeman, interestingly connects Non-Attachment to avoiding procrastination and sees it as a rigorous practical way of accomplishing worthwhile activities:
'You are probably already much too familiar with the truth that most anti-procrastination advice just doesn’t work, or at least not for very long. Motivational books, tapes and seminars might leave you feeling briefly excited, but that feeling soon fades. Ambitious lists of goals and systems of rewards seem like a great idea when you construct them, but feel stale the next morning; inspiring mottos on posters and coffee-mugs swiftly lose their ability to inspire.’
……The subtext is that if you can’t make yourself feel excited and pleased about getting down to work, then you can’t get down to work.’
‘Inspiration is for amateurs’ the artist Chuck Close once famously observed. ‘The rest of us just show up and get to Work.’
So ‘Passion’, ‘Motivation’ and ‘Getting in to the mood’ etc are desirables to get going; but not mandatory.
Eckhart Tolle
Eckhart Tolle is quoted at length in the book. The basic premise of Tolle’s philosophy is akin to Advaitic or Buddhist philosophy, i.e Quelling of the Ego.
‘When we identify with the inner chatter(of our mind)’,Tolle suggests, ‘when we come to think of it as ‘us’…..The sense of Self that we construct from identifying with our thoughts is what Tolle calls the ‘ego’. And by definition, living in the service of the ego can never make us happy.’
‘Why can the ego never bring happiness? Tolle’s argument here echoes the Stoics, who concluded that our judgments about the world are the source of our distress. But he takes things further, suggesting that these judgments, along with all our other thoughts, are what we take ourselves to be. We’re not only distressed by our thoughts; we imagine that we are those thoughts. The ego that results from this identification has a life of its own. It sustains itself through dissatisfaction – through the friction it creates against the present moment, by opposing itself to what’s happening, and by constantly projecting into the future, so that happiness is always some other time, never now.’
Then Tolle sinks into Advaitic theory:
The sceptic Burkeman does not buy this:
‘ …He(Tolle) seems to assume that when you stop identifying with your ego, you discover who you really are – that you discover your ‘deeper self’ or your ‘true Being’, which was hiding behind the fake self all along. But this kind of talk rightly makes more mainstream philosophers nervous. Just because you have succeeded in dismantling the conventional understanding of the self, it doesn’t necessarily follow that you’ll find the ‘real’ one.’
Burkeman dismisses the core of Tolle’s philosophy but latches onto the underlying thought:
’….The optimism-focused, goal-fixated, positive-thinking approach to happiness is exactly the kind of thing the ego loves. Positive thinking is all about Identifying with your thoughts than disidentifying from them. And the ‘cult of optimism’ is about looking forward to a happy or successful future, thereby reinforcing the message that happiness belongs to some other time than now.
you miss your whole life, ‘which is never not now’.
What Eckhart Tolle expounds is ancient wisdom of the Orient.
But what if Eckhart’s theory of an ‘Inner Reality’ or ‘True Self’ is incorrect, and there is no underlying ‘Truth’? Are we simply a ‘bundle of perceptions’ as Hume puts it and is there no ‘deeper’,‘truer’ meaning to who or what we are?
Don’t know. No one does actually.
But to focus, in a limited sense, to the topic at hand of achieving happiness, it will be apparent that the core philosophy to happiness as suggested by philosophers down the ages, all hinge on some sort of ‘Inner Reality’. Whether it be the Stoics, Buddhists or Eckhart Tolle.
Is Happiness a Worthwhile Goal?
Burkeman got it right initially, to my mind. That ‘Evolution has little interest in your being happy’.
As a ‘Modern Secularist’, Burkeman would obviously be at ease with the Evolution theory. So why doesn’t he simply focus on cues provided by the Science of Evolution on Man’s true nature?
Consider what we know:
Man is today at the pinnacle of the evolutionary curve and have remained the dominant species for long. In that sense, ‘Man’ and not the ‘Lion’ as we romantically presume, is the true ‘the King of the Jungle’. Can any other species stop our march?
How have we maintained our dominance over other species?
We are dominant because Evolution has wired us differently.
Animals are wired to satisfy their ‘Physiological urges’ only. So an animal will be content to just eat, breed, sleep throughout its life;
Just survive-that’s all.
Man is wired differently however.
Apart from Physiological urges, he has ‘Psychological urges’ too.
The base state of Man on account of this ‘Psychological wiring’ is ‘Restlessness’.
Man is a ‘Restless’ Animal.
Observe even a newly born baby and the truth is evident.
Man is born ‘Restless’ and remains so till the day he dies.
This is Man’s true nature. Of course the alternate theories expounded in the Orient, by Stoics or Guru’s like Eckhart Tolle talk of an ‘Inner Reality’ and do not see man as just another animal.
But ‘Modern Secularists’ like Burkeman surely would see Man as just another animal trying to survive.
Unlike what the Buddha propounded- Desire is not the root cause of misery.
We are ‘Restless’ or ‘Miserable’ by nature, and hence we ‘desire’ to get rid of ‘Restlessness’ or ‘Misery’.
And there is no ‘Nirvana’ or escaping being a ‘Restless human’ till the day you die.
What does ‘Restlessness’ make a Man do? Well, a Man seeks Peace. Till the day he dies. That is his nature. Period.
And Man will do anything to get rid of this ‘Restlessness’ or ‘Misery’.
To paraphrase Schopenhauer:
“Pain(Restlessness) is its basic stimulus and reality(of life), and pleasure is merely a negative cessation of pain”.
Hence the crux:
Religions which propagate 'eternal happiness' are talking of a state which is not ‘human’.
For one, it is not possible to be eternally happy (or sad for that matter). Secondly it is not desirable also.
I suspect the day we are able to rid ourselves of this ‘bug’ of ‘Restlessness’, we will lose our evolutionary edge or at the very least as Kant says:
The Antidote is an interesting read. It provide practical insights for life; as to how to stride along the path where we eternally strive for peace and blissfulness.
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
Barack Obama : Dreams from my father
Anyone else would have stopped right there, you know, and
that there had been a mistake. But not Barack. He got up and started singing in front of this big crowd—which is no easy feat, let me tell you—and he wasn’t great, but he was so sure of himself that before you knew it he was getting as much applause as anybody.”
My grandfather would shake his head and get out of his chair to flip on the TV set. “Now there’s something you can learn from your dad,” he would tell me. “Confidence". The secret to a man's success."
“This is no picnic for me either, buster.”
He thought folks who tried to focus on their 'individuality' and not be overtly concerned with their race and community to be missing the essential point: As a black you can't forget who you are; maybe for a white, but never for a black:
One day I asked her if she was going to the Black Students' association meeting. She looked at me funny, then started shaking her head like a baby who doesn’t want what it sees on the spoon.
" I am not black,” Joyce said. “I’m multiracial." Then she started telling me about her father, who happened to be Italian and was the sweetest man in the world; and her mother, who happened to be part African and part French and part Native American and part something else. “Why should I have to choose between them?” she asked me. Her voice cracked, and I thought she was going to cry. “It’s not white people who are making me choose. Maybe it used to be that way, but now they're willing to treat me like a person. No—it’s black people who have to make everything racial. They’re the ones making me choose. They’re the ones who are telling me that l can’t be who l am. . . .”
Only white culture could be nonracial, willing to adopt the occasional exotic into its ranks. Only white Culture had individuals. And we, the half-breeds and the college-degreed, take a survey of the situation and think to ourselves, Why should we get lumped in with the losers if we don’t have to? We become only so grateful to lose ourselves in the crowd, America’s happy, faceless marketplace; and We're never so outraged as when a cabbie drives past us or the Woman in the elevator clutches her purse; not so much because we’re bothered by the fact that such indignities are what less fortunate coloreds have to put up with every single day of their lives -although that’s what we tell ourselves- but because we’re wearing a Brooks brothers suit and speak impeccable English and yet have somehow been mistaken for an ordinary nigger.
"Don’t you know who I am? I’m an individual"
But Obama carries out a fair amount of rumination on this aspect when he recounts the reaction of his fellow community action members to the news that he was going to join Harvard Law school:
“I knew it!” he shouted.'
“Knew what?”
“That it was just a matter of time, Barack. Before you were outta here."
"Why'd you think that?”
Johnnie shook his head and laughed. “Damn, Barack. . . ’cause
You got options, that’s why. ’Cause you can leave. I mean, I know you’re a conscientious brother and all that, but when somebody’s got a choice between Harvard and Roseland, it’s only so long somebody’s gonna keep choosing Roseland."... I just hope you remember your friends when you put up in that fancy downtown"
nowhere.”
I grew quiet, embarrassed by my outburst. “Yeah, well . , . I‘m just
saying that I’ll be back, that’s all. l don’t want you or the leaders to
get the wrong idea."
Johnnie smiled gently. “Ain’t nobody's gonna get the wrong idea,Barack. Man, we’re just proud to see you succeed."
with Johnnie. Had he doubted my intentions? Or was it just me that mistrusted myself? It seemed like l had gone over my decision at least a hundred times. I needed a break, that was for sure. l wanted to go to Kenya.....
' maybe once you stripped away the rationalizations, it always came down to a simple matter of escape. An escape from poverty or boredom or crime or the shackles of your skin. Maybe, by going to law school, I’d be repeating a pattern that had been set in motion centuries before, the moment white men, themselves spurred on by their own fears of inconsequence, had landed on Africa’s shores, bringing with them their guns and blind hunger, to drag away the conquered in chains. That first encounter had redrawn the map of black life,
recentered its universe, created the very idea of escape.....
helped Will, Johnnie, and me clean up. When I asked her if she
needed a ride, she started shaking her head.
“What is it with you men?" she said, looking at Will and myself“
Her voice trembled slightly as she pulled on her coat. “Why is it
you’re always in a hurry? Why is it that what you have isn’t ever good
enough?”
daughters at home, the father that they would never know. Instead I
walked her to the door and gave her a hug.'
For a span of weeks or months, you could experience the freedom that comes from not feeling watched, the freedom of believing that your hair grows as it’s supposed to grow and that your rump sways the way a rump is supposed to sway. You could see a man talking to himself as
just plain crazy, or read about the criminal on the rent page of the
daily paper and ponder the corruption of the human heart, without having to think about whether the criminal or lunatic said something about your own fate. Here the world was black, and so you were just you; you could discover all those things that were unique to your life without living a lie or committing betrayal.
have this feeling of ease wrapped up as neatly as the young man was now wrapping Auma’s necklace, and take it back with me to America to slip on whenever my spirits flagged.
changed hands. We left the marketplace. The moment slipped
away.'
unemployed, including the two or three who had managed, against
stiff competition, to graduate from one of Kenya’s universities. If
Jane or Zeituni ever fell ill, if their companies ever closed or laid
them off, there was no government safety net. There was only family, next of kin; people burdened by similar hardship.
But what did that mean exactly? Back in the States, I’d been able to
translate such feelings into politics, organizing, a certain self-denial.
In Kenya, these strategies seemed hopelessly abstract, even self-indulgent. A commitment to black empowerment couldn’t help find
Bernard a job. A faith in participatory democracy couldn’t buy Jane a new set of sheets. For the first time in my life, I found myself thinking deeply about money: my own lack of it, the pursuit of it, the crude but undeniable peace it could buy. A part of me wished I could live up to the image that my new relatives imagined for me: A corporate Lawyer, an American businessman, my hand poised on the spigot, ready to rain down like manna the largesse of the western world.'
It gets a little bit melodramatic though. The scene where Obama describes himself sitting amidst the graves of his father and grandfather and crying was total bollywood.